Calling him

Although your comments brought such comfort to my blazing heart, some even put a big smile on my face and made me giggle, I just couldn't go on pretending like everything was ok.

I gave him the cold shoulder all day. Although he tried to shrug this whole matter off and started acting like nothing was wrong, asking me all kind of questions, showing me some article in the newspaper, calling me from dewaniya evey now and then, I just replied with a nod, or a yes or no answers.

Several posts ago, I wrote how we used to argue all the time. I later discovered that saying nothing and not butting heads with him was best as it saves my energy and results in him coming round to his senses and appreciating me more.

But this ordering business in new!

It's the next day and I still have my guards up. The phone is ringing. It's X again calling from work trying to make small talk and asking me about silly things. I reply calmy with minimal words and hang up.

I need to vent. I need to talk to someone.
I need to let my feelings out before i explode..

I got it- Mako ella ohwa..
I'll call him..

Who's him?
He's only my first true love..
And my best friend.
Katem asrary,
Knows every single little detail about me and about my life.

So I dial his number and hold my breath in anticipation.

"Hala 7beebti"

"No, I'm not 7beebtik now" I continue before he can interrupt me, "I'm calling you now AS MY FRIEND to help me get over this situation with my husband"

"I'm all ears"

"I was talking to him about me wanting to travel to visit my parents when he lashed out at me and ORDERED me to close the subject?? "

"I'm sure you're making it sound bigger than what it really is"

"I tell you he ORDERDEd me, while wagging his finger at me", I can feel the tears stinging my eyes, "Who does he think he is? ", My voice is cracking, "I am his partner in life, his EQUAL. How dare he!! "

"Look", he sighs. "You're blowing this out of proportion". He continues gently while I try to swallow the rising lump in my throat, "He must have been tired after work and didn't want to discuss it. I know it's no way to talk but he never was mean to you before, and I assure you he will not do it again"

"How can you be so sure? "

"Because he told me so. And he also told me he is very very sorry"

Knowing he's regretting what happened eased me a bit, "Is he now ? " I rub in .

"He sure is" He says and I can hear him smile.

"Oh well, ok.. ", I give in. "You better tell him that I will not tolerate this again" I smile, "But for now, he is forgiven"

"Ok", his voice warm and tender "See you soon".

"Bye"

Yes,
calling him and letting it all out was the best thing to do.
He's the only one who can make it all go away.


Of course you all know by who him is,
he's none other than X himself :)

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On another note,
I went to Alia's wedding ams.
She looked GORGEOUS, didn't she? :)

Allah ybarek laha o ybarik 3alaiha o yj3al kil ayyamha ma3ah sa3ada o hana ya rab.



Also,
Congratulations are in order,
for the lovely Um-Mit3ib

Mabro0k 3la takharroj,
chakchakchakchakchakchak <--- ya3ni ga3da asaffig :)
Khallasna mn elrob elaswad, now 3oqbal elfestan el abyath ;)

Magic in the Air- POOOF!

He's not kind, and definitly not gentle!
I take that back.

He is a good man, i will give him that.
But not unlike the enviroment we live in, he is a desert man.
Meaning he is dry, not soft and mellow.
3asaby, o 7aar.
And I hate that.


"It's so hot in here, and we still have a long time before you finish work and we get to tarvel for the summer. I'm thinking of visiting my parents in Lebanon for the weekend", I say while I'm brushing my hair.

"Malah da3y" he replies crisply.

"But whyyyy??" I whine. "I miss them, and it's only for three days!"
"And I say NO", his voice is rising alarmingly.

I slowly turn to look him in the eyes, preplexed.
"Why are you shouting? ", I continue calmly: "Can't we discuss this? "
"Ana gelt kelmity and there's nothing to discuss", he waves his finger at me: " I ORDER you not to go and that's the end of the subject"

He ORDERS me not to go?!!
Seriously?!!

I walk away fuming..
My blood is practically boiling..
And I sit down to my laptop to write this..

What will I do?
I still haven't figured that out.

Magic in the Air

I strech my neck closer to the mirror, close one eye and carefully apply my eyeliner. I pull back to view the result. "Not bad Gigi!" I smile to myself.

I finish up quickly. I carefully put my new dress on and fluff my hair just as X enters the room. I turn to look at him and I can see the appreciation in his eyes as he looks me over.

"Do you think it's too much? " , I say as i survery myself once again in the long mirror.

"I think it is just perfect", he says with a big smile as he comes to stand right behind me to check my reflection and meet my eyes through the mirror.

"Should I go pick something more subtle just to blend in? I don't want your family to think I'm out to steal their thunder"

He shakes his head no and says " Wallah mo thanbich intay ennich jameela o aneeqa" ....

Wow !!
Where did that come from ??

Ok so I know he loves me, I know he likes the way I look- BUT HE JUST DOESN'T SAY THOSE THINGS TO ME EVER.
He is a good man, kind, caring and gentle. But let's face it, he's not the kind to have sweet lovely words coming so easily out of his mouth. I have to kick and scream and beg to drag a word of compliment from him!

I turn to face him, his eyes are twinkling as he locks them into mine and the corners of his mouth are moving slowly upwards.

Ok, this is it.
Now.
It's the perfect time to ask him that question.

"X.. ? "
"Hmmmm ... "
"What's it like being married to me? "

He takes a deep breath, tilts his head to the side, and just when he was about to answer I rush in and say: "Think carefully about what you are about to say because i'm going to quote you"
His eyes pop out: "Quote me ?!! "
"Yes, for a reader of Glitter who wants some male perspective on married life "
And as soon as I utter the word Giltter I can see his mood change. He sighs and takes a step back.
"O ba3dain ma3a hal Glitter? When will this phase end? "

I mentally kick myself for being so foolish. Everything was going just well but I had to interrupt him and bring up Glitter.. Ee chan sekattay ma elrayyal kan beta7acha mn kaifah wefathfith laish el logafa laish!!

"Khalas khalas forget it. Will you drop me off at your sisters' house? Maly khelg asoog"
I changed the subject but I WILL get my answer. I'll change the question a bit, edit the part where it is all about Giltter, and I'll ask him again later.

He throws me off by saying "Well sure my lovely, anything for the pretty lady"

Huh !! @@
El mood sayer fullali ashoof?
3asa bas doom, mo bas youm



*Note to self: buy more of that magical eyeliner*

alGhalia tamer, we7na inlabbi ;)

Our winner of the 200,000 hits was kind enough to give me several choices of questions she wants the answer to. They were all quiet good actually, unlike SOME questions I've getting lately on my formspring account. *Rolls her eyes*

So I chose number 1, where she asked me to relate my story with X. As you all know I had written about this before but deleted it after suspecting that my identity was compromised. Now, upon her request, I published the story again. Just go to labels and click on my story and my whole life with X will unfold right infront of your eyes.

Aaaaaaand that's it folks .. :)
Looking forward to our next winner ;*

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This post is dedicated to Ghalia T's best friend "H", thank you lovely for helping her out with this. And we can't also forget Shushu, thank you too sweetheart ;*

And the 200,000 iiiiis ...

*drum roll*

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Ghalia T.

*تصفيق حااار*

Dear Ghalia,

Congratulations :-)

Now you get to ask me aything you want and i will write a whole post about it.

Love;

GG

Two Hundered Thousand :D

Hello .. :)

Please look at the counter to your right..

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Are you number 200,000 ?!?!?

:)

To answer your questions ..

I didn't exactly ask X for a divorce.

No marriage is perfect, and mine certainly is no exception!

The truth of the matter is that we went through some really tough patch. I don't know what went wrong exactly but 6 months ago we just couldn't communicate any more. We argued over everything, the silliest things!

What happened to us? I can't explain it!..
He couldn't talk to me without raising his voice. And I couldn't stand to look at his face.
O kel hatha over what? Madry!! There was no reason to explain it really!!

The situation started to get really ridiculous. And I was begining to suffocate. That's when the thought of a divorce crossed my mind: To hell with all of that I want to live in peace.



But..
Would a divorce really bring me peace?

X is a good man.
I know he loves me.
Do I really want to lose him?

No.
I need to fix this.
Fix it good.
Then ana ra7 atghalla and make him beg for rethaay.



So what did I do?

"InshaAllah"
"3ala amrik"
"elly tabeeh"

Simple soothing words to calm his agitated nerves.

And that is all that it took :)

He put down his armour and surrendered.
o reja3 le methel el awwal o a7san, rubby laka el7amd.


Ghalabtah bl 6eeb ;)

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Kuwait is just buzzing with the news of the engagement of Dalal- a beautiful kuwaiti girl, to Marwan bin Maktoum. And the melcha was today. And I'm genuinly happy for them.

I dont really know the girl. But I want to wish them all the best.
Allah yebarek lohom o ybarek 3alaihom o yejma3 bainhom eb kel khair ya rub :)

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التاج السلطاني

قوانين التاج السلطاني

اذكر اسم من طلب منك حل هذا الواجب
تحدث عن ستة أسرار قد لا يكتشفها من يقابلك للمرة الأولى
حول هذا الواجب إلى ستة مدونين، واذكر أسماءهم مع روابط مدوناتهم في موضوعك
اترك تعليقا في مدونة من حولت الواجب إليهم، ليعلموا عن هذا الواجب

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I've been tagged by the lovely Danderma.

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6 secrets about me.. hmmm well that's a bit difficult .. let's see

1.

I only breathe from one nostril at a time as they seem to hate each other and refuse to inhale air together!

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People who see us together (X and I) would never guess that just 6 months ago I considered asking X for a divorce.

3.

Not a day goes by without me singing and dancing :)

4.

I always always stop to let padestrians cross the street, especially when I'm on my way to Salhiya. Even the little-est deeds count.

5.

I can't say No.

6.

I have the memory of a gold fish :(

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I pass this over to- not bloggers, sorry- but to 6 of my lovely readers:

Mrs Chuck Bass

Dalal- Spoiled Gift

Hesperus

S.

R

Blah

Can I add more?

Bloggers this time, because that's what is do asked of me..

I would love to know the secrets of these girls ;)

Confashion

(Would she do it? madry let's see!)

Chicken Soup

Moi

Green Eggs & Balalee6

Swaira

Anony

I would have loved to tag Fourme, but she is too tired after her 2nd chemo and we wish her all well :*